I am somewhat of an insomniac at times. Nothing like some people; I've never had to take any meds for it except the occasional Benadryl. But I go through phases of lying in bed for hours before going to sleep. I don't know why I've been thinking about this because, with 2 little ones (one who still gets up at least once a night), I usually fall asleep when my head hits the pillow. But it took me awhile to fall asleep last night, and I was thinking about how my insomnia is all about control. I hate that I have no control over when I fall asleep. And so, on those nights I can't sleep, I lie there and TRY to fall asleep, and that makes it so much worse. There was a week after Matt and I got married that I probably only got 8 hours of sleep the whole week! Some nights I didn't sleep at all. I was exhausted and emotional and frustrated. And then, after a lot of prayer, it went away. (Funny side story from that week: one of those nights, around 3am, I was tossing and turning, frustrated and angry. Matt muttered something and I THOUGHT he was awake. This was early on in marriage and BEFORE I knew about Matt's tendency to talk in his sleep. So anyway, I pour out my frustrations to him and ask him for a hug. And he rolls over and mutters something about a dog. I was like, What? And he said, "I can't get that dog to be quiet!" And then he rolled over and started snoozing away. Yep. My husband just referred to me as a noisy dog. We have laughed about that many times since that night.) So yeah, I'm kind of a control freak. Drives me crazy that in this area, I can never have control. I just stress like crazy about how I can't make myself fall asleep, how I won't even know when my body does enter a sleeping state. Crazy, isn't it? Don't know why I've been thinking about that.

Chloe had her 6 month appointment today. And the doc found a bilateral ear infection. Sooo... amoxicillin for her. Did I mention she also had to get 3 shots? Poor baby is tough. She's in the bed cooing happily right now. Brooke would have been screaming like crazy. In fact, she still screams when she has ear aches or shots. I can't imagine combining the two! Anyway, I was worried the doc was going to tell me that Chloe is delayed because she isn't rolling yet. Fortunately, he wasn't worried about it... said that because she's sitting well and has good head control that she might never roll. She might just go straight to pulling up. He did lecture me about her weight. But Chloe, though chubby at almost 20 lbs, is no where near where Brooke was at this age. The doc told me to cut Chloe off from her night feeding. I smiled and nodded my head with NO intention of doing that. I will stop her eventually. But I think if a 6 month old still wants a nighttime feeding, she's welcome to it. Plus, I love to cuddle my sleepy girl in my arms at night. With all the noise and chaos during the day, I so rarely get a chance to do that! My baby is growing up too fast.

Anyway, I'm off to spend some time reading my Bible to Chloe while Brooke is napping (or not napping as the case may be right now!) Hope everyone is well!